i dont know if it is that guys enjoy messing around with my head, but there one thing they should know... its not a place u want to get into alone...

so here it goes... remember i told u bout my ex... (garth) that one ja, i remember his roomate went weird a while ago an i didn't understand it... so heres the thing he says he likes me.... the triky part is i am sure between the two of them they are just trying to fuck around but i really dont know...

in any case there is some serious moral problems for me with hooking up with ur ex's best friends so even if the whole thing was sencere... it ain't going to happen...

just out out of the blue! he couldn't even give me a proper reason... he mimbled something about its not you its me im messed up... like hello, as it goes everyone knows when someone say that its actually something you did.

so ill just roll up into a ball in my room until im ready...

Monday a mate of mine dissapeared from a show at the breytenbach theatre here in S.A, turns out he ODed on pain killers and antidepressants... well atleast he tried, he was taken to the hospital an had his stomach pumped... went to see him and he was drugged up to the extent that he was so random that i was lost (doesn't happen often). Anyhow he was back a varsity the next day, putting me incharge of explaining to everyone what happened to him!

Today (thursday 17 April 2008), he Od again. this time he was at varsity when he collapsed, the lecture or someone called an ambulance to take him to the hospital... hes still alive and is going to be sent away for counsiling...

i cant help but wonder will he ever stop or is he going to keep on trying till he dies?